As I transition into the next phase of my life, I would like to share some
conclusions. Most, from my life in
webcam chatrooms.
A few years back, wanting a website in my name, I thought a blog would be a good way of expressing my mind -
my self. I knew it was kind of old fashioned, even back then, but saw no other way to suit my taste. I mixed up YouTube videos with my posts, my own narration, and all in all it was nice.
A few months back, as evident by my lack of posting schedule,
I stopped. And instead, I'm now posting
Tweets, on Twitter! Hardly the same, but the format is attractive; an easier connection to people. And it does not feel censored as much as Facebook.
My Twitter is on the right, if you are curious.
Follow me.
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I have moderated and run
webcam chatrooms for several years, now. I have seen an endless stream of random men, of all creeds, showing unwelcome penises. I have seen a percentage, albeit much lower, of random women showing vaginas and-or breasts. Both sexes would play with them, until banning - for transgression against the
website rules, which do not allow nudity.
I have met & suffered many psychopaths that would harass myself, or others, on a semi-regular basis. Spam messages, threats, information leaking, and anything imaginable that would bother a person. Luckily, I live in a non-English speaking country, where most
botherers can't reach me. My attentiveness and chat-robot making skills defend me well.
Through the years, I have "
hosted" many guests in my chatrooms. Some for short periods, some for long - even years, even long years. None were as steady as me, outside of my own several month vacation, of recent. Even those I had trusted further, and had the impression that they would stick around, eventually left; for a variety of reasons, from work, school, to the girlfriend getting jealous.
As a dedicated and caring person, who prefers to remain excited & positive in my daily life, I have had
many disappointments. I get used to it, but it is never easy. It did, however,
teach me about patience, the value of my efforts, and about people. What types of people are out there. Their motivations. How I am seen by others. And what I should expect.
All in all, a lot of
great experiences, a varying level of friendships - some of whom I have met offline, and excellent lessons and growth on my part.